Actually, i don't know whether i should apologize or not. I think i should but at the same time, i don't think i should because it is not my fault, i think?
In the last post, i mentioned that he is going to show up on Friday but maybe he wont. Guess what, he did show up, and as suspected, he go and kacau the dunking machine setting up. I was actually surprised that he actually did stay back. He kinda followed me around for some reason but i just kept talking to my friends and keeping myself busy. I was talking to Kara when he was "waiting" behind me. But i walked to the girls changing room after that. The second time is where I was talking to Sher-Min and Serene. He was sitting at the pondok near the big gate. He saw me so he took a seat behind me. I said "Hi.", then continued the conversation. Then he whispered into my ear the plan we made the other day. I told Serene that i would be going jalan-jalan and left with him. I told him i had to go duty so i can't do it just yet. He obediently followed me to the library and waited for me.
Pn Tan was finding some banners so that we can hang it up and make the stall have some shade. He actually followed me down but detoured to the Arena Koko. After hanging everything, I made my way upstairs to pack my bags and go find him. I don't know why i went and find him but i did. I saw him in the canteen sitting with Jin Hao and Elizabeth so i detoured to the counter to buy Ice Lemon Tea. I spent so much money today. More than i was suppose to. I think he saw me so he followed me to the stairs there. I talked to Huey Ning and then he kinda "pulled" me to the third floor. He asked me to sit down beside him but i hesitated so he pulled my hand gently and I sat down beside him.
I know we planned this for so long, to stay back on a Friday and just spend time together. Finally we did that but I think it is just wrong. When we were a couple, we didn't do these things but now, we did and we broke up a long time ago. I don't know why but i just cried. I just cried. He asked me what's wrong and i cried. He held me close, hugging me, saying that i don't have to cry. Well, the reason i am crying is because of you. But, i can't tell you that right? I didn't stop crying so he held me closer. Hugging me tighter. I have to admit, i liked the feeling. The feeling of being protected, being hugged when i am in sorrow. He asked me to look at him but i don't dare. I don't dare to. I don't know why, but i just don't. And the best thing came after, he showered me with kisses. But then, two form one boys came up so i ran away. I RAN AWAY! I though he would come find me, but instead, he went downstairs. I am so stupid!. And, I am sorry. Really Sorry....
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