Hello, my name is Nur Diana Binti Rodzi. I rather be called Diana Rodzi for some particular reason. I go to school like every normal teenager. I have interests and dreams other people all over the world. I like, wait no, LOVE photography and sometimes a little bit too much. I love music. Genres i prefer is Country, Pop, R&B, R&B Soul and a a hint of other genres. Depends on my mood actually. I want a better camera so i am saving up for one. I am not pretty, attractive or what guys want but I am still me and no one can change that. So, i live by that motto. I am who I am, and no one can change that. I live by that motto and i am proud of it.
I am complicated and a weird person. I am a girl but i act like a boy. My brain still functions like a girls. I love Anime and Manga because I always imagine myself in the character's shoes. What they feel,i feel it too. I like drawing and doodling. I draw things i like and i doodle random things which i think about ever so often.
My blog is the place where i pour out my feeling and thoughts because i have no one to share it with. So, i might as well write here and let a random person to feel the feelings i feel. I love writing an i love imagining scenarios that only happen in movies.
Every night, before i sleep, i will have a little "movie clip" played. Usually it is about what i want in life and what i want to happen. But, not all of them comes true right? Sometimes, i get too carried away and i ended up getting hurt. I am used to it. I sound very pitiful but i am not.
I am on of the Librarians of SMK BU(3) and they are the epic people i hang out with everyday. We are family, although a group leaves each year but our family will never stop growing.We are one big family and i am part of it. I am Happy. I met so many wonderful people here. I learned alot of things. About discipline, responsibility, respect and trust. There is more to the library than just arranging books. You think our jobs are that easy? Think again.
I take risks sometimes far too big for me to handle. I throw caution into the wind and just live with it but i ended up getting hurt. I learn from my mistakes but sometimes i will never learn, not until i loose something important. I don't want it to happen but it just does. I know it is because of me and i have to change myself before asking others to change. Respect is earned, and not demanded. I learned that the hard way.
I am in the class 2 Mawar. Consider it one of the "top" classes but i think this is all bullshit. There is always people better than you in every way. Sometimes, they might actually amaze you with their hidden talent or abilities. You have to accept yourself before accepting other people. If you don't like who you are, how are you suppose to like other people? It will be pointless.
I get angry easily and i pay a high price for it. I get pissed off by little things. I would fling a table out of the room if i didn't control. Yes, i am a rough person, but that is just the way i am.
I hate it when my mom shuts down the computer when i let her use it while my programs are still running. I hate it when she turns off the radio in the morning. I hate it when she keeps hanging out in my room when i am busy with something. I hate it when she every single thing that i am doing on my computer. I hate it when she misunderstands. But, i love the way my mom is always nice to people (most of the time). I love the way my mom will do whatever she can just for the happiness of her family. I love it when my mom actually understands my feelings. I love it when my mom brings home stuff that other people don't own. Overall, I just love my mom. (Not to forget my dad. I love you too daddy. )
I am the person who loves to drown myself in romance for some reason. Sometimes, i just think too much about it. I want a man, that likes me for who i am and not for material things. I want a guy that i can be myself with. I want a person who will always be there for me, through thick and thin. I want a guy who will be honest and not betray others for his own sake. If only a guy like that exists in this world, how great that will be?
I am a messed up girl. It is as if hurricane Katrina passed through me over and over again. That is how messed up I am. Don't like me? Then go away. I don't want to waste your time, and mine. Yes, I am Mean.
