Messages in a Dream

Currently, i keep having these weird dreams recently and i don't know why but they usually have something to do about something i kept telling myself the whole day or something i am worried about. Here are examples.

On Monday, i wasn't feeling too well in class so i decided to not come to school the next day. I kept telling myself that when i feel really tired. I went home, did my assignment until i had a headache. I slept and dreamed.
I saw myself in school but no one noticed me for some reason, in my dream i thought i was in a dream. Somehow it was so realistic. Then when i saw myself walk to class, Samantha realized that i was there and asked "Eh? Arn't you suppose to be at home? Then somehow, i popped back into "reality" and panicked about what i am doing in school. So i took a cab home. The End. I woke up, looked at the clock and it was 3 am.

On Tuesday, i was at home resting (thank god) and about 3 pm. Me and him were talking about spending some time together on Friday. Of course i was excited and, yeah, shocked that he would "ask me out" but i was happy and playing with him a little bit. That night, i dreamed what my "date" would be like ( i saw hand holding and sitting together) I know it is not much but it is like something so distant away from me that if it happens i could die happy.

On wednesday, on the way to the toilet, i saw HIM on a wheelchair! I was like freaking out "what the heck happened to him!?" Before that, a guy in his 40's came up to me and asked where is the Bilik Kesihatan. I showed him the way and then after doing my "business" i walked up and saw the man and HIM on a wheelchair. It's his dad! I was freaking out all the way to the classroom. I was so worried. Who wouldn't be? I was panicking halfway through the day.

Thursday, it was the eve of my so called date and i assumed that he wouldn't come to school as he had an injured leg. But then i can't help but thinking otherwise. (my manga mind starts functioning) At night, i dreamt that i was playing a game with friends (i think?) then i saw him walking from the school parking lot with crutches and his leg all wrapped up. One of his friends helped him to carry his bag and he was walking towards me. When i saw (in my dream) i was shocked and this kept passing through my mind "Isn't he suppose to be at home?" "Is he even okay coming to school like that?" Then after my short "daydream" he came up to me and whispered into my ear "I didn't forget. If i did, you wouldn't forgive me". And then, i woke up. A nice way to jinx the whole dream. And it was 10 minutes to 6am.

Didn't bother to sleep again so i just got ready for school. When i went to school, i just can't help having that tiny hope that he would come to school just to see me. But i know he should be home resting and not injuring his leg more. Hopefully you get well soon tho. I made a get well card for you. I think by the time i passed it to you, yo would be healed already but i sill want to give it to him.

I shall end my post here. Toodles~

I feel betrayed

Yes, i am a freaking mess. I talk back. I act all bitch. I over react. I get angry. I throw tantrums. I am rough although i am a girl. I sometimes feel like ripping people's heads off. If i don't resist, i can chew my whole finger off. I use my mouse as a stress ball if i don't find something soft. That is how my mouse got spoiled last time. I torture myself with sad songs to make me feel sad. I feel like banging my head against the wall till my whole skull was shaved off. I want a piano to drop on me from 4 stories above me. I want to become one with the wind, unseen but loved but also feared. I want to dissapeare from the face of this earth, without a trace. I want to drown myself in a pool of water so that people will appreciate my presence for once. I want to die and see how life goes on from above. I want to be whipped for what i have done wrong. I want to be tortured for my wrong doing. I want to feel the pain other people is feeling. I want to be there for everybody but nobody is there for me. I am not appreciated. I am not bothered. I am not loved. I am not me. I am not....

Otaku Senses Kicking In

In japanese, the term Otaku means someone who is obsessed with either manga, anime and/or video games. Me, i am drowning myself in tears because of reading manga all morning. The story was nice. What do you expect?

Anyway, suppose to go to school today, but i ended up staying home as i have a terrible flu. Yesterday in school was horrible, i nearly collapsed. The ride on the way home if even more of a disaster, it was so bumpy (or so it was) that i nearly hurled but i was relieved once i reached home. I asked my maid to cook porridge for me (YAY!) I know, no person in the world like porridge (maybe) but I love it! Anyway, i took a refreshing cool bath and i ended up on bed. I didn't sleep, but instead, i forced myself to drag my laptop and put it on my bed so that i could finish typing out the dammned English Oral for Wei Wen. Then i forgot, i can't go to school the next day so i had to quickly finish it and email the document to Chee Zhen so that she could pass it to Wei Wen.

That boy is such a pain in the arse. He ask me to ALL the work and teacher said to keep the conversation in english and he kept speaking Chinese. I understand the language but i am not the translator okay? I was suppose to sleep right after eating my medicine but i had to stay up to finish the damn thing. And i had a headache because of that. Can't even sleep. And i discovered something interesting. The flu medicine (tablet) looks and tastes like mentos. Interesting isn't it?

I kept telling myself yesterday that I am not going to school today. Then my dream told me otherwise. I remember that i saw the image of me sitting with the Ixora gang and then we had assembly. When i walked up to class, i sat down and then Samantha noticed me and said "Eh!? i thought you weren't coming to school?" then i realized that and then i started to panic and made Samantha's dad drive me home. Then i woke up. Pretty awkward right? I was so relived that i actually DID'NT go to school.

I woke up at 7 due to my mother's kasar-ness while opening my room door. So i had nothing to do so i just onned my computer and i saw 7 notifications on my facebook. Thank you, to the people who wished me to get well soon. You know me loves you. I read manga until like 9? Then i went downstairs to eat breakfast and give my little baby rabbits breakfast. Then i read manga for the rest of the day. I was waiting for the moment school finishes so i can see many many people online.

It was about 3-ish and Syafik started to chat with me. I totally miss those times. I messed with him alot. Don't get mad yah? Anyway, we talked for like 3 hours? i dunno but he had to off. The charlotte talked to me and said "so, you really din't go to school.". Well, duhh! Obvious right? So now, i am gonna post pics of my cutie rabbits. And maybe end this post with charlotte screaming.

Servant of Evil

This story is adapted (or maybe inspired) from the song "Servant of Evil" sang by Len Kagamine. You want to song, find it on youtube. make sure you find the one with english subtitles but it is already cry worthy without the subs.

INTRO

"Dong...dong..." Goes the sound of church bells. It is 9am in the morning and a busy one. But at that moment, Rin and Len, a pair of twins were born.... 

Chapter 1

4 years later...

"Hey, Len! Come here and look at this!" says Rin with excitement.

"What is it Rin? I'm trying to find some ants here." complains Len.

Len walks towards Rin's direction. In her hand, there is a beautiful headpiece made of daisy's and grass. He was amazed on what his sister had made. He kept on admiring the headpiece.

"Len, if you like it so much, then I shall give it to you then." says Rin with pleasure.

Len hugs his sister tightly and the both of them walked back to their home. To their surprise, they found a number of strangers in their home. After squeezing through, the both of them managed to see their mother. Their mother is very ill but they are still as cheerful as always.

"She won't be able to support her children in that condition." says a woman at the corner of the room.

"Might as well give her children away to someone that is capable." replies a man.

"I agree on that motion. Being bedridden, there is no possible way she is able to take care or her twins." debates a woman.

Suddenly, the doors of the small cottage flew open. Everybody in the room made room for the King to walk in. 

"What is the King doing here?" "There must be trouble." "This is not going to turn out good." Whispers the crowd.

The king makes way to the bedridden woman, mother of the twins, Rin and Len. The king then says " How are you doing today? Today, i have come to lighten your burden. You have a very cheerful and beautiful daughter and I shall take her to the castle and make her my daughter and Princess of the kingdom."

The woman is so ill, that she can only her pockets of the words thrown at her. At that moment, the King's secretary gave her a scroll and a feather pen already dipped into ink. She needs to sign the agreement about giving her daughter away. She knows that she want's the best for her daughter, so she signs the agreement. After signing with her weak, shaky hands, the pen fell from her hand. She breathed her last breath. The King has taken Rin away from Len forever. One of the gentleman from the crowd took pity of Len so he took Len into his home and made him his son.

From then on, they were apart.

Chapter 2

Two decades had past. Rin grew up to be a beautiful princess and Len became the most handsome bachelor in town. 

One fine day, Rin was walking down the streets of her kingdom when she met Len. At that moment she had a flashback of her childhood, the moment where destiny divided she and her brother. She was sure that he was her brother, he looks exactly like her. He must be her long lost brother.

She patted Len's back, he turned his head and his eyes widen. He finally found his long lost sister. Finally, they were united after 2 decades of being apart. Finally, they were together once more. From then and there, Len made a promise to always protect his innocent sister, never leave her sight, will always make sure that her lovely smile will remain on her flawless complexion, even if he had to become evil, he would do it. For the sake of his sister, forever and always. From that day on wards, they spent every single minute of the day together.

The King had passed away due to an unknown illness and Rin had become the heir to the thrown. She has become the Queen and she made Len her Royal and Loyal servant.

Chapter 3

The Queen and her servant was travelling in the neighbouring kingdom. On the way to the kingdom's castle for some business, Len saw a beautiful girl in green. She was the most beautiful thing he has ever seen. Her hair was wavy and long, her skirt follows as she walked, she looks so flawless, nothing about her is imperfect. 

Once the business with the royals of the kingdom is finished, The Queen ordered her Servant to erase the beautiful girl from this world. Although the servant loves the beautiful girl, he shall attend the queens orders, because they are twins. If evil run through the blood of the queen, he too is evil, because he will do whatever it takes to protect the queen, his beloved sibling.

That night, the servant lured the beautiful girl into a dark alley. The beautiful girl expects a surprise, a very big surprise.

"Come, I have something to show you," says Len.

"Why do we have to come to this dark alley? I'm scared," whimpers the girl.

"You won't be scared anymore," says Len as he takes out a knife.

In that split second, he stabbed her from behind. As the beautiful girl falls to the ground, tears start to well up in his eyes. He asks himself "Why won't my tears stop flowing? I am following orders from my dear Queen, after all. " He returned back to the neighbouring kindoms's guest room, tears still flowing from his eyes.

"I have erassed the girl from this earth as you ordered, my queen" says the servant as he bows.

"You have done well, my servant. You truly are my sibling." replies the Queen, with a glare of evil in her eyes.

They journey back to their kingdom the following day.

Chapter 4

The king of the neighbouring kingdom found out that one of his citizen was murdered and the mastermind behind it all was the one and only Queen Rin. The King ordered that she would be executed at once. 

"Here, I'll lend you my clothes. After you are done changing, immediately start escaping. Don't worry about a thing. We are twins after all. No one will be able to tell the difference." debates the servant after receiving the news. 

"I trust you, my dear sibling. " says the queen obediently.

Len writes a note while the queen is changing. He placed the note inside the bottle and place it into the cloak the queen will be wearing when she escapes. Then, he looks at his enviroment and brushed his hands against his sibling's clothes and quickly starts changing.

The queen is now the servant and the servant is now the queen. The servant fled into the woods behind the castle while the queen is brought to the town square to be executed in front of the residents there. Finally the time has come, the bell sounds signal the end of the queen. Without bothering about looking at the crowd, he was forced on his hands and knees and his head placed on the mechanism. Before the blade was dropped onto his neck, he whispered "I love you, Rin. May we meet in the next life." In a split second, his head came rolling down the steps and blood flowed from between the blade and the wooden planks holding his body in place. 

In the forest, Rin felt a chill go up her spine. Her hand was cold so she placed them in the pockets of the cloak her sibling told he to wear. She felt something smooth and realized it was a message in a bottle. She forced the cork out of the bottle and knocked the piece of paper out. The note read:

Dear Rin,

                

              By the time you read this, i would be beheaded already. I just want you to know, although i am no longer in the form of my body, i will always be by your side. Fate divided the two of us when we were still young but fate also brought us back together. Fate, such a delightful thing isn't it? For now, all i can say is, don't be afraid to be yourself. Just keep smiling, be the cheerful person you used to be. I will always be by your side, protecting you from harms way. If you miss me, just think of me and i will appear by your side. I'll lend you my shoulder to cry on if you are sad. I already promised myself that i would protect you no matter what. I will always be there. I hope in the next life, i would be able to be your twin once again so that we may play together like we used to. Until then, take care. 

From your sibling and servant,

Len Kagamine

Then, tears rolled down her eyes as she read he brothers final words of advice. She charged through the woods, not knowing which way to go. As she saw a bright ray of light at the end of the road, she ran even faster. She didn't feel the uneven forest floor beneath her feat anymore. She was in mid air, falling and falling... Her life flashed before her eyes, and when she sees the image of her brother in her mind, she felt her spine crack into two. That was the end of her. She joins her brother in the afterworld, together forever.

Choral Speaking @ KDU College

I woke up at 5:45 to bath so my hair would be straight when i tie it up. I wore Samantha Yap's pinafore and headed for school at 6:35am. I arrived school at around 6:50am and i waited for Hui Lin to come so i can do her hair for her. I tied all my hair up. So ugly and i look like i am back in Standard 3. Yun Teng said i looked cute. Excuse me, i do NOT look cute. The bus was late, it arrived at around 7:10am. There was a traffic jam from BU3 to KDU College. I was so afraid to take out my Galaxy tab as Ms. Yeow is sitting right beside me so i just sneakily on it and listen to tunes. We arrived there in a short time. Our school was the first team to arrive at the campus. I would like to go to KDU College but they don't have Veterinary Services. Oh Well.

One particular school arrived late. But their costumes are awesome! There was a girl wearing a kimono! My team is the 6th team to go on stage. The other teams are really got in their own ways, but one particular school exceeded the time limit which is 8 minutes. My school, 6 minutes and 10 seconds. Epic fail. But we got 4th place. But by 0.2 points can get 3rd place already! The judges are mean. 

The whole event ended earlier than expected, by one hour actually, so we were given the freedom to go to the bazaar that was going on downstairs. I didn't get to buy anything though, sad. My school's bus already arrived so we headed back to school. But the funny thing is, we walked towards the wrong bus! We were actually wondering why the driver is now an indian (I am not trying to be racist).  Me, Char, Samantha and Asuka and a few dudes were the first ones to arrive at the CORRECT bus, so we just hogged the whole back row. I wanted Charlotte to sit with me but she sat at the seat on the other side, leaving my seat empty. Then when the others arrive, Justin cam and sit beside me. 

There were a few students who went missing half-way. The gang dissapeared (Trudy, Chee Zhen, Bhanu, Wan Xin, Xiu Wen, Helena, Zi Xian, and some other people). I had to call Zi Xian and say the bus is leaving, he was like panicking. When they arrived, we checked around to see if anyone is missing, then we realized that Edmund was missing. When we saw him at the entrance, he was like looking at which way to run. When he saw our bus, he was like running all the way. Justin, Jia Jing, and Ee Lee kept saying he was an Olympic Runner. When he arrived in the bus, he was greeted with cheers and a fake medal for running. 

On the way back to school, everyone was complaining that they don't want to go for the gotong- royong so complained to Ms. Yeow so that we could go to One Utama. She didn't want to take the risk of losing anybody and no one would have transport home. So, we decided to go to McD at Centerpoint. All the food is paid by Ms. Yeow. She is so awesome. We had a little trouble with the orders so we all decided to have the same thing, just different drinks.

 When our orders arrived, all the cokes were on one tray and Jia Jing is suppose to bring them upstairs. I saw two cups about to fall so i put my hand to block, but end up, all of them spilled. Nice job. And i was blammed for everything. What am I, a dart board? Thay all kept putting me at fault and then Nazifa, who was also blamming me, asked me to chill. You blame me and you ask me to chill? You want to die? I finally lost to the guilt and i just handed my 10 ringgit to Samantha so that we could have new drinks. But she said the workers are going to give 10 drinks free of charge (i think because for the lunch special, there are free refills). When one of the workers was mopping the floor, i can hear a silent "Ishh" from the dude. I know you are annoyed but you can't blame us right? I was holding back my tears. Then when i wasvwaiting for the orders, i just ran in the toilet to cry it out. It was a short while so no one noticed.  When i came out of the toilet, a dude told me that we were "too excited". DUDE! WE WERE ARGUING ON WHO MADE THE DRINKS DROP! You don't understand chinese don't condemn lah. 

Finally the orders are all fulfilled, i got my burger and 2 drinks (coke and sprite) and fries i had none. I ended up eating people's unwanted fries on the way back to school. Then and there is where the madness ended. Here are some pics.