Empty Pages of A Diary

I have never said this before in my life but my birthday this year sucks. Well, my birthday sucks every year except for last year where everyone treated me nicely. Not like this year. Not many people remembered my birthday. At least i think so. They all can say. "I forgot to bring your present." or "I haven't buy yet." You know what do i think when i hear that? It is as if i am not important or i am just plain invincible. I buy all of your presents like few months before your birthday even arrives. The latest is like 2 weeks before the actual day. Or maybe a few days. But you all can come to me and say you HAVEN'T buy or FORGOT to bring. I know i am being over the top with this nonsense although my birthday was like a month ago, but the only person i got a present from is Bhanu. AND SHE HATES ME! She is the only one that cares. But i didn't appreciate her effort. 


When i have to go for early recess, Bhanu will be drapping herself over Trudy and Zhen. It annoys me that much. And, i don't have a companion to walk with to the canteen. This is why, i ponteng and go library all the time. That is the only place where i feel like i belong in a community. I would also transfer to Ixora in a heartbeat. At least i have Yun Teng, my wife, Serene, Yong Lin, Hui NI, Sher Min and all the other people. Not like Mawar. I sit there like statue only. When people don't know anything, they go ask the people that don't know. ASK ME LAH! I KNOW HOW TO DO! I know i am boasting around now but i just don't belong here, in this class. Not anymore.


I have always dreamed that all my REAL friends organised a party just to celebrate my birthday. Not in school, not at their house, but at 1U. They already convinced my mom to let me go, they told me it was just a plain hangout. I went, and then i go to like a simple restaurant and hear people shout "SURPRISE!". I got a table full of presents and a huge cake enough for everyone. If only that would happen but it wouldn't. By the time everybody realizes that, i am already out of the country. Good luck finding me then. I will abandon my current facebook account, change numbers, change emails, change blog url. I will just dissapear from the face of this earth.  Goodbye.