If I Die Young

If I die young bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song 

oh oh oh oh 

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother

She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and

Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no 

ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well 

I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song 

The sharp knife of a short life, well 

I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom

I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger

I’ve never known the lovin' of a man 

But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever

Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well 

I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar 

They're worth so much more after I’m a goner

And maybe then you’ll hear the words I've been singin’ 

Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song 

oh oh 

The ballad of a dove 

Go with peace and love

Gather up your tears; keep them in your pocket

Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well 

I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

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The song currently on replay. This song really inspires me. If I Die Young. 

If I Die Young, will people miss me? Who will? I'm just another girl that is hated by everyone. Everyone must be cursing me "GO DIE LAH!" Since I am such a Bitch after all. No one will miss me right? I thought so. No one will cry out "NO! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO DIE!?" "I loved you, why did you have to go?" No one I tell you. No one will say that. Even if they did, I wouldn't care because they didn't appreciate me before so why should i care? I know I am like being Emo now but I can't help it. Plus, I was never taken to mind, and I was ignored completely by some people. I bet in my absence, everyone will be throwing a party.  Because, they are celebrating my death. I bet no one will beg me to stay if I am going to leave for Boarding School, in another country. They would be freaking happy because i won't be in their sights anymore. No one cares, just my parents. I would just leave this question unanswered. Who will miss me? 

The Horror

(delayed post. so sorry!)(Today meaning by Tuesday)

Today is considered the worst day of my life. I can't think of a worse day in my whole life. Let me explain.

The day already started bad. Kiwan Richard is suppose to come to my class to collect a pendrive from me but he didn't. I waited and waited but he didn't show up so i decided to find him in his class. When i found him, i was embarassed to walk into the class so i just kept the pendrive and went for P.E.

Here comes English class.  Ms Yeow gave us back our test papers. Then Ms. Yeow, out of the blue, she say she want to change the places of the 5 boys sitting in front. (Christopher, Yip Jia Jing, Lim Wei Wen, Cheong Echuim and Chew Ming Xia) She says they are too noisy together so she decided to split them up. Jia Jing have to move to Kong Kei Ming's Place and Lim Wei Wen had to move his table and chair all the way to the back of the class. Meaning, behind me and Charlotte.

After all the Choral Speaking thing was over and it was time for Science. Science, not much to say. Then i went for recess, meaning I will go to the Library.  At my surprise, HIS class was there and he was sitting at the back. I returned a book for a student and wanted to put it back myself. I was trying to give myself an excuse so that i have the courage to walk there today. When my recess was nearly over, he walked with me to the counter (EEKKK!!) Then he teased me a little bit (forgot about what) then i kinda hit him with my test paper. (sorry) Then i headed back to class.

When i reached class, Charlotte kinda reported to me that Wei Wen moved and is now sitting beside me. I thought she was joking but he really did move beside me! I was so annoyed! He is a bothersome, annoying, irritating and not to mention, I HATE HIM! I had to resist his talking everyday. Then that bloody Nazifa say, he is not that bad. To you maybe because you're a stupid gangster bitch yourself. I can't stand the both of you. I don't want Natalia to leave so that Nazifa won't stick to us.

Now i just have to be patient. Hopefully Ms. Yeow moves his place. Fast.

Rebecca Black vs. Alana Lee

vs.

I am guesssing everyone would prefer Alana Lee would be better. The wrong person got noticed.  Alana Lee is a way better singer that Rebecca Black. Her lyrics are beautiful and the are cute. At least she looks her age. She is like 1 year older then me but Rebecca Black is like the same age as me but she looks like she is 26 years old. I am lazy to rant about her song so i am just gonna let this guy do the job.

Why? why...

The past few days i keep having that lovey dovey feeling.  I read romance novels online, write about my fantasies in school, i watch movies about love. I really have to stop it all but it is just uncontrollable. Maybe i will just start a blog where i write my little stories. Anyway...

My exams finished 2 days ago. It was okay but i was really dissapointed with my results.  My maths was 84%. To normal people, they will be like "Why are you sulking? You got an A for crying out loud!" But they don't know my standard.  I usually get 90 and above. You know 80+ in pmr is how much? it is a freaking B! How fo you expect me to improve like that? I made so many stupid mistakes. I shouldn't have slept. I should have checked my paper. No point regretting now right? I just want to say sorry to the people who i scolded today. Sorry Jonathan, Ka Wai, Zhen Rong and other people. I got bad marks for my Science and i released my anger on you guys. At least i released my anger by carrying those books during gotong-royong. It was a really good workout.

After school was also fun as me and Serene need to clear out some of the keceriaan stuff from the bilik rujukan. I found many nice things and played with the tyewritter a little bit. Then we kinda hanged around at the library and my friends joined the conversation. Then we noticed that Jonathan and Helena's braces match. The Bhanu suddenly said "If you wear a pinafore, it will match your braces perfectly." Then he was a little annoyed and got up and walked away.  I had to go and apalogise to him. Then when it is about 3, KaWai slept in the seat beside me. I had to wake him up so i kinda have to pat his head. As expected, his hair is rough and spikey. Why are all boys rough and spikey? Why not soft and silky. And no, soft and silky hair is not just for girls.

After that, I went to centerpoint with Huey Cher and Helena. They walked really really slow so to make tham walk faster, i just walk right ahead of them.  Without doing that, it will take them half and hour just to reach centerpoint. But while i was walking there, i kinda scratched my arm against the school fence. It bleeded really bad but i don't really care. It is nice to get hurt once in a while. (don't think i am crazy yah...) We have come to the end of my story. Bye.

My Epic Dream XD

I woke up laughing. You know why? Because i had an epic dream! This is one screwed up dream. Anyway. Let the dream show begin!

One day, my school suddenly got rich and decided to upgrade, upsize, upclass the toilets. One girls toilet is done upgradding. The rest of the toilets are under construction so everyone even boys have to use that 1 toilet. The changing room also upgrade. The my school suddenly built a swimming pool so we all had swimming classes. When i was in the toilet doing my business, Ka Wai came in the toilet to change for his swimming class. Then a while later he came out, shirtless (to be honest not really attractive) with stripy boxers. I was laughing like mad man. So are the other girls in the toilet. Then he went out, more girls laughed at him. He was so embarassed, he just took off his boxers and exposed his black colour swimming trunks. And practically showing everything he got (not so much at all XD) And i woke up laughing like that.

To the poor sap that was featured in this dream, sorry, i can't control my dreams, it just happened. And sorry that you were publicly humiliated in my dream.

-THE END-

Who Says- Selena Gomez

Wouldn't wanna be anybody else

You made me insecure 
Told me I wasn't good enough 
But who are you to judge 
When you're a diamond in the rough 
I'm sure you got some things 
You'd like to change about yourself 
But when it comes to me 
I wouldn't want to be anybody else 

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

I'm no beauty queen 
I'm just beautiful me 

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You've got every right 
To a beautiful life 
C'mon 

[Chorus] 

Who says 
Who says you're not perfect 
Who says you're not worth it 
Who says you're the only one that's hurting 
Trust me 
That's the price of beauty 
Who says you're not pretty 
Who says you're not beautiful 
Who says 

[Selena Gomez - Verse 2] 

It's such a funny thing 
How nothing's funny when it's you 
You tell 'em what you mean 
But they keep whiting out the truth 
It's like a work of art 
That never gets to see the light 
Keep you beneath the stars 
Won't let you touch the sky 

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na 

I'm no beauty queen 
I'm just beautiful me 

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na 
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You've got every right 
To a beautiful life 
C'mon 

[Chorus] 

Who says 
Who says you're not perfect 
Who says you're not worth it 
Who says you're the only one that's hurting 
Trust me 
That's the price of beauty 
Who says you're not pretty 
Who says you're not beautiful 

[Bridge] 

Who says 
Who says you're not start potential 
Who says you're not presidential 
Who says you can't be in movies 
Listen to me, listen to me 
Who says you don't pass the test 
Who says you can't be the best 
Who said, who said 
Won't you tell me who said that 
Yeah, oh 

[Chorus]

Who Says?

this is the wat.tv version. You can just go to youtube and find it. I can't go youtube from my computer so i have to find the video from another website. Anyway, this is a very nice song.  Who Says- Selena Gomez

My blog is so dead.

My blog is so freaking dead. I mean i haven't update it in like a week or so. That is a really long time. Now time to blabber about my crazy beautiful life. Okay, since that wednesday i updated, i joined my school's debate team. I didn't get to attend the first meeting as i have my library duty that day. But i did get to attend the second meeting which was on tuesday. It was rather interesting and i learned alot about how the government works. Miss Yeow sent me home that day. We talked about me taking chinese and in no time, i reached home. On wednesday, i got to skip PBSM for the debate practice and Khai Jett came to train us. It was fun and i tought up of some things about banning coporal punishment in schools. The opposition won, aka the one actually going for the competition.

On thursday, after recess, i have to attend another debate practice so we all ponteng! I was suppose to go to classes and stapler the note giving permission to go for debate practice until the last one which is going to 3A. That guy's class. I was like begging people to go and stapler the note in the class but they were all like no, no, no. Alas i saw Jo Yee which is from 3A, she went in and stapler. The reason i don't wanna go in the class is because i don't want to see Syafik and Shaun. Mostly it is Syafik. I can't wait to see Shaun. I was so excited to ponteng class the day before is because i get to see Shaun during his recess. When waiting for the rest of the debate team to come, i got to talk to Shaun. I was so happy! Inside i was smiling to my ears.

That day was the first time i debated. When i got up, i was practically shivering but at least i get to piss off Azrie a little bit.  Then after school, i had no money to eat so i starved until i got home. The PSS Club meeting is okay. I secretly wanted to sit with Shaun but failed. When Pn. Tan said get into your groups, i was like "THANK YOU GOD! for letting me be with him." At least i got to talk to him. Then he mentioned something about my phone not working and that he tried to call me and no one answered so i was like taking my phone (i brought it to school that day) and looking through the call log for unknown numbers. The he said "joking lah." Then he like took Zi Qing's note book and like read out my number. Then he was like "hah! now i know your number and i shall annoy you everyday with texts! " Actually, i would be as happy and jumping around like a mad woman just be receiving a text from him.

Friday, not so much to say, but i wish i was Helena that she get to skip an entire day of school to go for a debate workshop in KDU College. Although Helena is my friend, i sometimes don't think she deserves all the attention she is getting right now. The reason she is so famous is because of her sister who is like the hottie and the person who fragrents the schools name. I think everyone thinks that Helena will be like the Rowana Hong in the making. Sometimes i think, i am as good as her but why does she get all the attention? ALL BECAUSE OF HER SISTER! But that is just my opinion. But if it wasn't for me not going to KDU for the workshop, i wouldn't have see Shaun during duty.

I was just doing the measurements and cutting for the new books. Then Jonathan was asking me if i needed help. I said i was fine on my own but he insisted on helping. So i cut the plastic and at the end i wall be like "WOOSH!" done witht he cutting. The he will be saying "Like a Boss " That day i was having my mood swing so i kinda like took the blade and like showed my murder face and he will shut up. I have to admit, it was kinda fun. Jonathan asked me who was my favourite singer so i answered "Taylor Swift" So he gave me that surprised look. So i replied "I know, i look like the type of girl who likes pop or punk rock music. I am like the kind of girl who is soft on the inside and has a hard shell outside to protect myself. I may not look like i have been hurt but i can be really good at hiding somethings." and he replied "wow, that's deep"

Friday was like a day where everyone looses their senses and just let go. People laughed all around, and i was like "has everyone gone bonkers?" The when Edmund blocked Quek's way, Quek pulled Edmund's shirt up and i can see his bright coloured underwear. Good thing Jonathan was blocking some of it. Then i said "His underwear colour scheme is just like my mom's pants." (the colour of the underwear is magenta and black, something like my three-quater pants i wore to tuition on monday)  Jonathan colapsed to the ground and started to cough and pretend puke. I was laughing uncontrolbly. The i have to help Shaun get his specks from his friend. Then i realized how beautiful his eyes looked. It is a nice dark colour and when i saw those eyes, i just melted. Okay enough with the mushy talk

I have nothing much to say besides that my weekends are filled with tuition but i don't care. I have t get ready for dinner out with family, bye!

Yesterday and Today

Yesterday

It was a typical Tuesday and a stressful one as all the subjects there are like boring and well stressful. First it was PJK but the teachers didn't come as they were having a meeting so we all stayed in class and have like 2 free periods. I thought there was going to be PE so i was like HAHA! i no need to hide from the teacher in the changing room and no need to run laps. BUT, the noob pengawasses came. Well Keshia is not noob but the rest of them are. They are like with their nerdie faces and all "sit down!"  Since i can't change, i decided to change in class so it was a struggling process. First thing to worry about is that the boys will look and criticize and then the pengawases is like walking around the class. This is like primary all over again. Charlotte was like my lookout but i don't think she is a very good one. The way she warn people is as if it is not serious. She say like very near. AND WHEN I NEARLY WANNA WEAR MY SHIRT! so i was like quickly take off. And then Zi Xian was like "Is Diana meditating on the floor?" and then charlotte was like giving that weird look. In the end i didn't change in the classroom. About 2 minutes before Ms.Yeow came in for English, i ran to the toilet to change. Then i went back to class and yelled at Keshia "SEE!? JUST 2 MINUTES! 2 MINUTES! U THINK I WANT TO RUN AWAY IS IT!? RUN WHERE!?" Then Ms. Yeow came in and scolded Quek and Kin Khei as the both of them are still wearing PJK shirt. She was like "You're boys, you can change in the classroom without people looking at you. I give you 3 minutes." She left and then came back. The 2 of them just wear their white shirt outside of their PJK shirt. Then Ms. Yeow said "see? as simple as that." So we continued our class. People presented their projects. Mine is on Power Point so it was okay.

Then recess, then It was ICTL, free period, did our Geo, i photostated the answers so everyone was like copying. The it was Geo. The time passed to slow. It feels like the time flew by 15 minutes but i see my watch it was only 5 minutes. WTH! But then the time speeded up at the end of the class. Then it was sejarah. My time to sit with Huey Cher they all. I always sit there. Then in the car, Alex was blabbering out an advertisment on the "Blabber Mouth 9000" He was actually insulting May-li. I accidentaly gave him the isnpiration to do so. The the 2 of them had a fight. And then Alex went home, so the car finally is quiet. The End.

Today


Started with History, it was okay. Then it was PJK. I didn't do the drawing for science so i brought my science books down. When i was about to sit down at the stone table and chair, Bhanu yelled out "DON'T SIT!" Damn bloody Pn. Nik said cannot sit. yeesh. Why should i listen to a teacher who doesn't even teach me? So i did the drawing standing, it turned pretty good. Then we sat at the pondok as we didn't change our clothes. The we were having fun with our shadows. I stood behind Bhanu and Chee Zhen. Then suddenly Bhanu said "HEY! both of our heads looks like it is Diana's boobs." I was like WTH!? But i don't care lah. Then we hang out in the changing room. Leanne, Jia Hui and Xin Ee was changing. The Jia Hui suddenly say "Xin Ee is very fat." Then Leanne said "Wah. If Xin Ee is fat then what am I? Obese?" We were all laughing. If Xin Ee is fat and Leanne is obese, then what am I? A big ball of fat? I am NOT like cikgu Amer. Then we went for science. We did an experiment then halfway, we did our monthly test. It wasn't that hard. But everyone got NO.4 and 5 wrong. Number 4's answer is Fat dissolves Vitamin A,C,D,E,K. The worng statement. It is so obvious. Water dissolves vitamin B and C. The rest is fat, then it is Number 5. Something about washing rice grains too many times, it will lose the Vitamin B in it. So yeah, people thought that the rice grains will become smaller. LOL! I GOT ALL CORRECT!! YAY!

Then it was recess. I went to the library and when i was going to a shelf when i KNOCKED into Syafik. I was like "Oh, sorry. *looks up* Oh it's you." Then he just slide away and sit down. Embarasing much. After that i was laughing with some probaits about all the baby books in the library. Then more librarians came. Then i heard news about Quek wanting to quit. In my mind i thought of an explanation Quek should have said to his dad. Then we talked about Kin Khei wanting to get Domo-Kun stuff for Rachel. So we discussed about what type of Domo things we have. Then i kinda teased Ka Wai a little bit. Wanting to take his book away. He was like "HEY GIMME MY BOOK BACK YOU!" I gave him back of course. Then i helped some form 1's to return books and i was late for Geo but On. Ling wasn't angry. Thank goodness. We finished Chapter 6 of Geo. The it was BM. Pn. Zakiah didn't come cuz she need to go do Ultrasound. So we all lepaked at the library. I did my chinese homework which is due today. I do finished and helpd Quek with his presentation thing. Then we went back to class and did Maths. It was okay, we did like a few questions and chilled the rest of the time. The it was KOKO. BSMM members were splitted up into grooups and I AM ALONE INT HE WHOLE GROUP! (alone meaning i don't know anyone in my group) WHY DOES HUEY CHER GET TO BE IN KA WAI'S GROUP! i want to bully him. I know i am evil. Then in the car, May-li and Alex had a war. May-li's weapon was my umbrella and Alex's sheild is his book.So funny. I recorded it with May-li's phone. I want to bring my phone to school tomorrow so may-li can sen it to me. Damn funny. Imma show you guys later. When i recieve the video of course. The End.


Anyway, i have to go as my tuition is like in 10 minutes so bye. I need to move my laptop back upstairs somemore. Haish. Bye!