I seriously hate friday duty. It is hard controlling everybody because i am all buddy buddy with them. I know i am just a stupid immature fucked up mood swing bitch who orders people around okay? Happy? You so angry scold me in the fucking face lah! Since you say i am so fucked up anyway right? RIGHT? You no need to hide lah, i know you all hate me. If i choose, i rather walk out the library and get rapped than stay in that fucking shit of a place. I know respect is suppose to be earned of whatever shit but you all have to understand that I am in charge of you all and if you don't tell me anything and just do whatever you fucking please, just walk out. I can just tell Pn. Tan you all quit. I will be even more happy. HAPPY LIKE THE FUCKED UP SHIT I AM! WALK PUT LAH!
You all don't know, but everytime duty starts, the moment i ask you all to gather in front right? I will hold back my tears. Why? Cause you all won't listen to me. Yah, i am a fucking form 2, you are older than me and you don't deserve to listen to me, well, i don't want to order you around either. Plus, you were being rude. Mother fucker. So fuck off bitch.
Friday, August 26, 2011
I seriously am stupid
You know why i feel stupid? BECAUSE I AM! I believed him and he ditched me. HE FUCKING DITCHED ME! If you don't want to meet up, don't even plan to meet up. I don't care what the heck you excuse is because this is not the first time you ditched me. Well, there was this one time we planned to meet up and you did come to pick me up but you ended goofing off with your friends. Good thing i have a back up plan or not i would be bored as hell. I really wanted to go out with you, you know. If you don't want to then just tell me. You don't have to be nice and agree then ditch me in the end.
This always happen to me. I look forward to one thing and then when the awaited day comes, my hopes come crashing down like some bulldozer raped the Great Wall of China. I predicted that you wouldn't show so i made back up plans. And it is not like you didn't come to school today right? I SAW YOU! Don't you dare lie to me. I already told you, if you ditch me this time i am not going to forgive you. Well, i am not going to forgive you. And i don't think you should layan me either. Even if you beg and cry, even if you sweet talk me, it won't work, because you didn't keep your promise. YOU NEVER DO!
If I am the problem, just tell me that. Yell at me in the face if you want. They say you are such a good big brother. Oh, ha ha. Yeah right. You can't keep a simple promise. Somemore, you can say, "Yeah, we can meet up. I am staying back anyway. I ALWAYS stay back on friday." Well, i went the whole school searching for you. You didn't know that right? And you were suppose to wait for me in the library. Good Brother. MY EFFING ARSE. Prove it to me, then i call you a good brother. You know what i will call you? A lifeless pervert who thinks about nothing else but *censored* And i do NOT take back my words.
This always happen to me. I look forward to one thing and then when the awaited day comes, my hopes come crashing down like some bulldozer raped the Great Wall of China. I predicted that you wouldn't show so i made back up plans. And it is not like you didn't come to school today right? I SAW YOU! Don't you dare lie to me. I already told you, if you ditch me this time i am not going to forgive you. Well, i am not going to forgive you. And i don't think you should layan me either. Even if you beg and cry, even if you sweet talk me, it won't work, because you didn't keep your promise. YOU NEVER DO!
If I am the problem, just tell me that. Yell at me in the face if you want. They say you are such a good big brother. Oh, ha ha. Yeah right. You can't keep a simple promise. Somemore, you can say, "Yeah, we can meet up. I am staying back anyway. I ALWAYS stay back on friday." Well, i went the whole school searching for you. You didn't know that right? And you were suppose to wait for me in the library. Good Brother. MY EFFING ARSE. Prove it to me, then i call you a good brother. You know what i will call you? A lifeless pervert who thinks about nothing else but *censored* And i do NOT take back my words.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Rant Time. Ignore it if you want to. Read it if you want to. I don't give a shit.
I seriously don't get it. I made it clear to you already right? Maybe i am the one being stubborn or maybe over protective. Yeah, i want the things i like to belong to me and only me, not anyone else, but me. I am that kind of person. I don't think you know that. I see you walk with other girls, it just makes me feel like targeting an arrow to the back of your head. Okay, i don't think you know what i am talking about now.
The other day, you were all sweet to me and we talked till late at night until i was so tired i slept, with you on he other line. I am terribly sorry for that okay? I really am, just that it is so hard to even text you sometimes. I don't know whether you are ignoring me or what. You never reply. I feel so damn pissed right now. What am i to you? A freaking toy that you play around once a month? Yah, you realized that, you only talk to me once a month. On that day only, then you completely ignore me. I don't think you realized that i feel ditched because you have so many freaking sluts hanging around you. It's fine if you want to call me a slut, bitch, whore, any word you can possibly imagine, call me that.
If you feel that i am annoying you, then tell me so. Just tell me right to the face "I don't want you texting me anymore. I don't want you chatting with me anymore. I don't want you to bother me anymore." Just yell that to me in the face and i will leave you alone. Although my heart will be broken, but at least i know you are happy. Thinking of you being happy is good enough for me.
The other day, you were all sweet to me and we talked till late at night until i was so tired i slept, with you on he other line. I am terribly sorry for that okay? I really am, just that it is so hard to even text you sometimes. I don't know whether you are ignoring me or what. You never reply. I feel so damn pissed right now. What am i to you? A freaking toy that you play around once a month? Yah, you realized that, you only talk to me once a month. On that day only, then you completely ignore me. I don't think you realized that i feel ditched because you have so many freaking sluts hanging around you. It's fine if you want to call me a slut, bitch, whore, any word you can possibly imagine, call me that.
If you feel that i am annoying you, then tell me so. Just tell me right to the face "I don't want you texting me anymore. I don't want you chatting with me anymore. I don't want you to bother me anymore." Just yell that to me in the face and i will leave you alone. Although my heart will be broken, but at least i know you are happy. Thinking of you being happy is good enough for me.
Revived from the dead?
I think my blog is dead. Dead for too long. At least i think so. Anyways, today something happened. I was excited but then i didn't so much anymore. Why? Because my teachers and fellow school mates killed a goat and 30 cute fat chickens. Yes, i mean what i said. Have a buka puasa later but i am not going. I hate the school at night, so effing dark. Last year, i was outside and they were telling ghost stories. So, to avoid me having nightmares, i decided to skip it and go to tuition. See how good i am? :P And get to sleep till the next day cuz it is a HOLIDAY! byes.
Friday, August 19, 2011
I have a Confession to Make
And, no, not a love confession but a confession about something else. About what club i think is boring and what club is not. I know, it sounds like a boring topic but the heck with it.
First, practically all clubs are boring except those with funny names like YE, Editorial, Japanese, Choir and etc. Okay, maybe they don't sound all that weird but they are awesome clubs. In YE, you get to learn how to make a profit out of things you sell and you get to attend some competitions and stuff. Editorial, is actually a group of people who are in charge of the annual magazine. It sounds fun but from the work my classmates are doing, they don't seem to enjoy it at all. They have to chance after the teachers for name lists and stuff. I think it is a little bit troublesome. I rather just grab hold of a camera and complete my work. At least i enjoy the task that has been given to me.
Choir club, consider it okay because it is also known as the GLEE club. Yes, GLEE. I wanted to audition to join last year but i was lazy plus i don't know what song to sing. Sadly, now the club is like, dead, for some reason. Oh well. And the long awaited moment. JAPANESE CLUB!!!!
I seriously love japanese club. Why? Because, the people are awesome! I joined in for the class yesterday as a one day student. First impression of the teacher or shall i say, sensei, he looks like a freaking pervert but he is awesome! He calls Yun Teng tomato-chan. Cute isn't it? And then we call Denise Kaicho (president) and we call people older than us senpai and the younger people kyouhai (not really but the heck with it.) And the people there are freaking awesome. The senior class is actually for more advanced japanese lessons but we end up playing games. I want to drop by there next week too. It is so much fun! Sooooo joining Japanese club next year. My group is like made out of cosplayers for some reason.
Okay, someone, please remind me, JOIN JAPANESE CLUB NEXT YEAR! although i know i won't learn a single thing cuz we all would be gila there. JAPANESE CLUB FTW!!
First, practically all clubs are boring except those with funny names like YE, Editorial, Japanese, Choir and etc. Okay, maybe they don't sound all that weird but they are awesome clubs. In YE, you get to learn how to make a profit out of things you sell and you get to attend some competitions and stuff. Editorial, is actually a group of people who are in charge of the annual magazine. It sounds fun but from the work my classmates are doing, they don't seem to enjoy it at all. They have to chance after the teachers for name lists and stuff. I think it is a little bit troublesome. I rather just grab hold of a camera and complete my work. At least i enjoy the task that has been given to me.
Choir club, consider it okay because it is also known as the GLEE club. Yes, GLEE. I wanted to audition to join last year but i was lazy plus i don't know what song to sing. Sadly, now the club is like, dead, for some reason. Oh well. And the long awaited moment. JAPANESE CLUB!!!!
I seriously love japanese club. Why? Because, the people are awesome! I joined in for the class yesterday as a one day student. First impression of the teacher or shall i say, sensei, he looks like a freaking pervert but he is awesome! He calls Yun Teng tomato-chan. Cute isn't it? And then we call Denise Kaicho (president) and we call people older than us senpai and the younger people kyouhai (not really but the heck with it.) And the people there are freaking awesome. The senior class is actually for more advanced japanese lessons but we end up playing games. I want to drop by there next week too. It is so much fun! Sooooo joining Japanese club next year.
Okay, someone, please remind me, JOIN JAPANESE CLUB NEXT YEAR! although i know i won't learn a single thing cuz we all would be gila there. JAPANESE CLUB FTW!!
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Hello... headache....
Currently in school in ICTL class. Samantha and Asuka are both spamming the computer with k-pop stuff. I don't know why but those stuff bores me. Anyway, today, suppose to have some games later. I invited him to come along but he is having his trials so i don't know whether he will be coming to see me. And the headache strikes back again. GAHH! I don't want to have BM and Agama later. My baby camera is back in my hands (i left it in the science lab on tuesday). Okay, now i sound really random right now.
Currently, i am working on this novel-like story. Short sypnosis. A really popular jock falls for a tomboy. The jock's ex-gf is angry and doesn't aprove of it. (the usual drama) stuff happens, jock finds out why the girl acts all tomboy-ish. He tries to break down her walls of protection. I mixed American drama and Japanese manga/anime together. So it gives that so called 'tha-dump" feeling. Hopefully i won't give up on the story half-way. Working on chapter 3 now.
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Currently, i am working on this novel-like story. Short sypnosis. A really popular jock falls for a tomboy. The jock's ex-gf is angry and doesn't aprove of it. (the usual drama) stuff happens, jock finds out why the girl acts all tomboy-ish. He tries to break down her walls of protection. I mixed American drama and Japanese manga/anime together. So it gives that so called 'tha-dump" feeling. Hopefully i won't give up on the story half-way. Working on chapter 3 now.
This is the end of my post.
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