What should i do now?

Wearing his shirt. I miss him. We talked alot during the weekend. Seriously made my weekend special. We seriously have to spend more time together. Like seriously. And just a note, you don't have to come on Friday cause the pot luck is kinda cancelled so yeah. I think i should end my post here. Gonna go talk to him <3 Bye.

I think my blog is dead.

I don't have to think. My blog IS dead. Well, it was dead for the past few days ago. The reason is that my house internet hates me. The internet can only be accessed from the Galaxie tab and my dad's laptop but not from my laptop. So, now my dad did something and it works now. Go team daddy.

I didn't get to write about my raya holidays so i am just gonna tell you now. I had 2 new baju raya. Both pink, by the way. Yeah, i love pink and my family's theme this year is pink, so yeah. I have this really awesome shoe which is sandles and sneakers merged together. The laces are so cute. Here's a pic.

Laces FTW! :3

Currently, I am using twitter more often so i would just spam stuff there and my facebook status is like dead. I keep talking to the same person these few days. And that particular person replies really really late. But now that person is okay. We talk more often too. I think because i am in school and that person is not. Oh well.

My few days of raya is eating, eating and eating. And then, more eating. I think the 4 kilo's that i lost came back again. And my cousin has thing freaggin huge dslr i kinda played with it. He's a professional photographer, so i can hijack his camera anytime i want. And man, that baby is huge. If i drop it, mati lohh.

I think i should end my post here as i have nothing else to say. byes 

Love Language

This video made me cry, no matter how many times it is remade and repeated. It is so sweet.

The Original

The remake.

The Sri KDU version. 

WATCH IT!!!!!! 

I officially HATE THIS CHIZZ

I seriously hate friday duty. It is hard controlling everybody because i am all buddy buddy with them. I know i am just a stupid immature fucked up mood swing bitch who orders people around okay? Happy? You so angry scold me in the fucking face lah! Since you say i am so fucked up anyway right? RIGHT? You no need to hide lah, i know you all hate me. If i choose, i rather walk out the library and get rapped than stay in that fucking shit of a place. I know respect is suppose to be earned of whatever shit but you all have to understand that I am in charge of you all and if you don't tell me anything and just do whatever you fucking please, just walk out. I can just tell Pn. Tan you all quit. I will be even more happy. HAPPY LIKE THE FUCKED UP SHIT I AM! WALK PUT LAH!

You all don't know, but everytime duty starts, the moment i ask you all to gather in front right? I will hold back my tears. Why? Cause you all won't listen to me. Yah, i am a fucking form 2, you are older than me and you don't deserve to listen to me, well, i don't want to order you around either. Plus, you were being rude. Mother fucker. So fuck off bitch.

I seriously am stupid

You know why i feel stupid? BECAUSE I AM! I believed him and he ditched me. HE FUCKING DITCHED ME! If you don't want to meet up, don't even plan to meet up. I don't care what the heck you excuse is because this is not the first time you ditched me. Well, there was this one time we planned to meet up and you did come to pick me up but you ended goofing off with your friends. Good thing i have a back up plan or not i would be bored as hell. I really wanted to go out with you, you know. If you don't want to then just tell me. You don't have to be nice and agree then ditch me in the end.

This always happen to me. I look forward to one thing and then when the awaited day comes, my hopes come crashing down like some bulldozer raped the Great Wall of China. I predicted that you wouldn't show so i made back up plans. And it is not like you didn't come to school today right? I SAW YOU! Don't you dare lie to me. I already told you, if you ditch me this time i am not going to forgive you. Well, i am not going to forgive you. And i don't think you should layan me either. Even if you beg and cry, even if you sweet talk me, it won't work, because you didn't keep your promise. YOU NEVER DO!

If I am the problem, just tell me that. Yell at me in the face if you want. They say you are such a good big brother. Oh, ha ha. Yeah right. You can't keep a simple promise. Somemore, you can say, "Yeah, we can meet up. I am staying back anyway. I ALWAYS stay back on friday." Well, i went the whole school searching for you. You didn't know that right? And you were suppose to wait for me in the library. Good Brother. MY EFFING ARSE. Prove it to me, then i call you a good brother. You know what i will call you? A lifeless pervert who thinks about nothing else but *censored* And i do NOT take back my words.

My shortest post ever.

HE TEXTED ME FIRST!!!!!!!

I shall end my post.

Rant Time. Ignore it if you want to. Read it if you want to. I don't give a shit.

I seriously don't get it. I made it clear to you already right? Maybe i am the one being stubborn or maybe over protective. Yeah, i want the things i like to belong to me and only me, not anyone else, but me. I am that kind of person. I don't think you know that. I see you walk with other girls, it just makes me feel like targeting an arrow to the back of your head. Okay, i don't think you know what i am talking about now.

The other day, you were all sweet to me and we talked till late at night until i was so tired i slept, with you on he other line. I am terribly sorry for that okay? I really am, just that it is so hard to even text you sometimes. I don't know whether you are ignoring me or what. You never reply. I feel so damn pissed right now. What am i to you? A freaking toy that you play around once a month? Yah, you realized that, you only talk to me once a month. On that day only, then you completely ignore me. I don't think you realized that i feel ditched because you have so many freaking sluts hanging around you. It's fine if you want to call me a slut, bitch, whore, any word you can possibly imagine, call me that.

If you feel that i am annoying you, then tell me so. Just tell me right to the face "I don't want you texting me anymore. I don't want you chatting with me anymore. I don't want you to bother me anymore." Just yell that to me in the face and i will leave you alone. Although my heart will be broken, but at least i know you are happy. Thinking of you being happy is good enough for me.