before i start my post. My "girlfriend" said you-know-who sms her. And you know what it says!? "Hi, I like you. Will you be my girlfriend?" WTF IS THIS SHIT! err for your information GENIUS she is homo.... you get it? HOMO!!! oh you are so dead tomorrow... i shall ask her to kill him for me.... pls pick one. face/arm/leg take your pick. If you know me message me your answer. The one with the most votes is the one that i am gonna break.
On Sunday, I followed my parents to this steamboat restaurant which is really nice. The restaurant name is tupai-tupai. In English it is Squirel. The restaurant theme is cute, squirells everywhere. (not real ones of course.) I lazy to describe lah. The food is nice. I ate till i am like err... puke? okay enough chit chat. Here's the pics
The two rabbits above it at Carefour Kota Damansara. They are at he entrance. SO CUTE! i carried the grey one.
The restaurant has 2 pet squirells. So sute. I like the one in the last picture best.
I fell in love with this song once i heard it. It has a nice melody and very meaningful lyrics. Just watch the video lah. And sing along if you know the words... lalala~~~
Made a wrong turn, once or twice Dug my way out, blood and fire Bad decisions, that's alright Welcome to my silly life Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated Look, I'm still around
I love this line of the song as it says EXACTLY how i feel. This is why i say music is my life. It describes every little detail of my time of day. Every last one.
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If your read my 11 January post, then you should know i mentioned about me explaining on why i do am racist to my own kind. If any orang melayu is reading this, don't feel offended. I only hate the ones in my school. And don't go reporting this to the police either. I am just writing about my love and hate that's all. No hard feelings k? Here we go...
Since i was young, i grew up surrounded by chinese. When i went to Primary School, I went to a Chinese Educated School. So that means, surrounded by chinese. In kindergarden i mingled with all races. When i rose to Primary, i only mixed with chinese because they spoke english (english is my key language). I don't talk to malays as they talk Bahasa Melayu. My BM wasn't that good then. When i went to agama (it is like church but for Islams), i am always the one who ends up left behind and alone. All the malays teased me and make fun of me. As you can see, i was bulied alot when i was young as i am "different". Vivian always say, "You laugh at me because I'm different, but I laugh at you because you are all the same!" I like the way she says it.
In primary school, I kinda resisted the urge to scream and say enough. Now I am in secondary school. My secondary school is 80% chinese. All students that come from a chinese school needs to take chinese. I thought i need to take it but chinese lesson is during my agama. For malay's, it is a must to take agama as it is our religion. I am in 2 Mawar, only 2 malays left in the class. Last year 1 Mawar has 3 malays. My friend Natalia went to a boarding school out of the state. Only me and Nazifa. Nazifa also came from the same primary school as me, so she also speaks chinese. But she is the person who mixes with her own kind. Now, I have agama in the IRC room (meeting room) as there are proper chairs and tables there which makes writing notes easier.
When i is time for Agama class, we all had to fight for a place to sit as there are not enough chairs. When i enter the IRC, there are plenty of seats but people booked them all for their friends. I on the other hand have no friends at all. I have Amelia and Nazifa but they have their own gang, Nazifa has Kesiah, Shaz, and Azima. Amelia has Farah, Farra, Nabo.... many other people. Automaticly, they book places for their friends. When i ask "hey, can i sit here?" They always answer "There is someone sitting here." So i always had to fight for a chair and a partner to sit with. I HATE IT! I HAVE NO FRIENDS AT ALL! when teacher is not teaching, i have no one to talk to, i have to one to compare notes with, i have no one to poke when i'm bored. I HAVE NO ONE!
I ranted about it on Facebook. Amelia commented to take pity. She said "Don't be sad, I'll sit with you." YEAH RIGHT! She is too busy hanging with the people she call bitches herself. Me? I am left there like i am yesterdays meatloaf. Today i ended up sitting at the very end of the classroom. I can't hear what the teacher is saying! I can't even see the notes written on the white board. When i was sitting at the back, I kept repeating "I need to get a transfer slip out of this class." But then i thought "This is not America! I CAN'T GET OUT OF ANY CLASS EVEN IF I WANTED TO!" I hate this shits. I can't wait till Form 4 and i finally get out of this school and go to Australia (if... but i want to!) I hate this. I DON'T FIT IN! I only get along with Chinese. In my brain, Malays are automatic become the word "bitches" "back-stabbers" "bullies" "big mouthed" I know, why do i hate my own kind? Does that mean i hate myself?
Not really. I just don't like the way they act. I love my religion. It IS the most beautiful religion of all. I don't like the way they act, move, talk ect. They act like they are "perfect" "flawless" For your information, not everything is flawless. Behind those walls lies many scars. So don't think you are all that. I am done with my rant now. You can schold me in school or whatever you want. My mind won't change. Unless something big like all the malays of BU3 came to my class and fight just to apologise to all the hurt you have caused me. Then i'll reconsider. But for the time being, I am still gonna be on the Chinese side of the fence. Malays shoo! get out of my lawn XD seriously... get out OF MY LIFE!
Not love like, you die i will join you in the afterlife, sort of way. But i love it when we text for hours and you don't give a damn on wasting your credit on my stupid comments like "I'm hungry." I now have a GIRLFRIEND! I am not lesbian if that is what you think. I FOUND A GIRL WHO IS EXACTLY LIKE ME!!! except for the fact she is more open and blabbers it out instead of keeping it to herself.
I oned the computer today, waited a while and she onlined. We webcamed, then started to talk abt stuff. Then she ranted about her homework, "A Dream Holiday" the title, Venice, Italy. SHE AIN'T ROMANTIC AT ALL. Not even the slightest chance. We talked, i go downstairs for lunch, ran back up, my mom offed the com. F*** I hate it when she does that, it ruins my mood. But i hate it even more when my mom comes into my room in the morning, walks to my radio and off's it. I HATE IT! I like my music in the morning, it is a kick start to my day. My mood is happy and whatever catchy song that is played on the radio for the day will be stuck in my head. Thus, making my mood even better. If the radio is off, my mood will run away and my day would be sad.
After i on the computer back, my mom started to yell at me "DIANA! GO DOWNSTAIRS AND WAIT FOR YOUR TEACHER! SHE WANT TO COME ALREADY!" my tuition is in 1 hour lah deyy. So when i actually want to off, Syafik onlined. I decided to stay a little while longer. Finally, he started the conversation first. (Happy!) Then my mom came into my room, so i need to off my conversation. Nice timing Syafik. After i offed the com, my mom said she is gonna go out. So i was like "get out of the house, get out of the house, GET OUT OF THE HOUSE! Finally my mom left the house. I quickly on the computer to check if he is still online. HE IS!
Then me him and her webcam together. We talked about private stuff . Then i said "crap the teacher is here. I shall leave the webcam on and let the 2 of u argue." I keep coming upstairs to check if the 2 of them are still online. I not enough dosage of webcamming for the day. After 2 long hours of tuition with the webcam left on. HE IS STILL ON. but she offed... damn... so i webcammed with him loh... then we plan to go centerpoint together on thursday, until i checked the calender and thursday is actually a public holiday. DAMN! grrr.... angry... We talked, then my parents came home. Then i off the com. Our conversation moved from the computer to the phone. I texted the whole way, i hid behind shelfs of the grocery store so i can text him. The whole time i was at the grocery store, i texted him. I had to go to toilet just to text him abt "stuff" cuz if my mom sees i am dead meat. Then we came home, droped the groceries off, and headed for dinner. Still texted him the whole way. But during dinner i did'nt lah. I go toilet and text. we texted for like 4 hours. OMG. I gila sudah. We ended conversaion with "bye" "bye, don't be late for school"
Today, he was late. =.= i specifically told him to NOT be late. Still late apa lahh ni... anyway, i would do the restaurant review tomorrow as now i need to get homework done and i hav tuition later. SEE YAH!
I am still a little insecure about my life. I am deciding that i have a normal relationship with him. I don't want to waste my effort on someone that doesn't like me back.
I would like to talk about yesterday. It is a typical duty day yesterday. I was just helping people to clean the chairs. Then suddenly, Puan.Tan called me. (she was in a bad mood) I was surprised. I walked into her room and she started to yell at me! So what if i clean chairs, is that a sin!? She started to schold me about my chinese new year assignment. I DID THE BOARD! WHEN I DO 2, THEN NEXT DAY I COME BACK IT IS 1 AGAIN! I HATE IT! I was fed up, and pissed. She scholded me for the things i didn't do. I nearly cried. I STAYED UP ALL NIGHT TO DO THAT! I EVEN GOT A LECTURE FROM MY MOM ON USING HER OFFICE PRINTER! Fuck lah. So, me, Nabilla and Mae Yen did the board. We decided to take revenge. I took my stuff, and i took an entire bottle of glitter. I don't care, they do their board, they bring their stuff. Don't go and take my stuff off the board and claim it as yours. And if they take it off again, I swear i am gonna kill the 2 of them. I don't care weather it is my Ketua's precious sister, i am gonna KILL if they take it down again.
Okay. The rant about yesterday is done with. Now for the rant of today! yay! if you do not bother, fine, you can go to another website which is amusing to you. Now i shall go downstairs to get my camera so you won't get so bored for this post and can look at pictures.
*walks downstairs, fights off ninja's, nearly got killed by a middle ages axe, escaped, got the camera and walks back upstairs. Edited the photos. Post's them on blog. Continues typing*
Here's some chinese new year shots i took at 1Utama. I love the picture of the pearls. My best shot yet. Not much to say. I just followed my mom to go collect some vouchers. I went to Popular, the are movinf out f their old lot so they are having a sale. EVERYTHING MUST GO!! i bought a new COOL school bag, a keychain gift for Bhanu, 5 A4 Note books, and like 4 story books. I lazy to say the titles. The picture of the books are down below...
the chinese novel (comic version)
SO TRUE!
Elizabeth Gilbert <3
Bhanu's Birthday present!!! hope she doesn't read my blog.
people of bu3. you wanna know how my new bag looks like. see on monday la.
As you can see from the title, i feel screwed. you know why? Okay, have you been a situation that you feel like you are in quick sand, sinking in, but you have no way to get out? yeah, THAT is exactly how i feel.
To be exact, and whoever from BU3 reads this blog. Do NOT, I repeat do NOT tell the 2 boys that i am mentioning in this. If you do, i swear i am gonna track you down, and strangle you so hard that i actually crush your spine. Got it? okay.
From the earlier posts, i mentioned a few times that i have a crush. That is true. His name is Shaun. People say he doesn't have that much good looks and bla bla bla, but i don't care because i like him the way he is. And the thing i never mentioned before on this blog is that i have a boyfriend. People who know me will say "Diana!? Having a boyfriend!? what kind of sick joke is this? " I would say the name, but PLEASE don't tell anyone. I just want to release my stress i am having over the holiday. My boyfriend is Syafik Au. For people who know me very well, they know i am a malay who dislikes malays. Yah i know, a person disliking her own people. I will tell this story another time as i am too lazy and do not want people to wait.
The stress part of this is that i love both guys. I dunno why, i just love them both. Why did i say love? I dunno.... HELP ME!!! T.T i don't know what to do. Guys from 2 Mawar reading this, I SHALL KILL YOU when u say this in school.
I just realized, why am i being so open on my blog? I knew i was so dead once i ended it. So, eveyone is invited to my funeral and memorial. If my mom is organizing one. Oh well, hope i don't screw up tomorrow. It is going to be a LONG week for me.
This is my first one week diary. This is the first week of 2011 and the start of school for the year.
Day One 3/1/11
This is the first day of school and it started out really great. I saw all my friends waiting for me at the tapak. Once i saw them, i started screaming and hugging them like crazy. Then school starts. I discovered that the place where my class is suppose to line up stays at the same freaking place! NO CHANGES! and the worst part is. MY CLASS IS THE SAME PLACE AS WELL! absolutely NO changes. It's the first day and i already hate it!
Anyway, we went to our class. We tried to take my old place but failed. THE BOYS ALWAYS TOOK THE FRONT SEAT! anyway... i seat at the second last row but i am still able to see teacher and hear her clearly. We met the class teacher, she looked quite nice, she teaches us moral but i don't get to see her as i take agama so yeah. We are suppose to ellect the class monitor after the introduction of the teacher. And guess who it is. IT IS YOURS TRULY. anyway.. that was the only interesting thing that happen to me on that day.
Day Two 4/1/11
Itwas okay, not much to talk about. It is just that i went to the library during recess thinking that my crush is there but just remembered he is form 3 and i am form 2. Different recess times. :( i miss the times where we sit at the counter and read the Star Newspaper comics and laugh like idiots. I miss it so much. And the library is so quiet without the senior librarian comedians. When i entered the library, it was like monday morning during assembly. Tottaly EMPTY! and dark. Day 2 not much to say. so... there
Day Three 5/1/11
Today is the start of the years c0-curricular activities. I was thinking of being AJK of PBSM again but i want to let my friends to have a chance. Since i can be AJK for like Badminton, Red House, and the Traveling Club (and no i don't get to travel to places while in the club if that is what u are thinking) Not much to say, i just got home pretty late. Have meeting the next day. More work. And i was scholded by Pn. Ling. (bitch) just because the whiteboard duster is in bad shape. Like come ON! it is the third day! u think i bother to look at the whiteboard? i can barely have time to put up articles. Damn the teacher, but i have to admit, her geography is good. Instead of writing on the board, she says it out loud, that makes us listen to her. A very good plan actually. Not much to say about this day so i am done.
Day Four 6/1/11
Not much happened today either, just that i have a meeting later in the day, and the first time i actually paid attention in KH. IT WAS DAMN FREAKING EASY PEOPLE! Me and my friend was like, wow, we actually paid attention in KH. And i also answered most of teachers questions. YAY! So happy, i am SO gonna ace KH this year. if i don't, i am gonna FREAK! okay meeting was not so bad, Jin Hao my senior lost his voice cuz' he was talking most of the time. So yeah. When he wanted o speak, Aileen has to step in. My crush did'nt turn up for the meeting, he has a little transport problem. so the day ends like that, and i went home and landed on my bed. Was so tired.
Day Five 7/1/11
It's HUEY CHER'S B'DAY!!! charlotte bought cake (Oreo Cheese Cake) and the funny thing is, WE ALL GOT HER KEYCHAINS! well, mine is actually a very cute sponge, but i converted it into a keychain. It is like this really cute panda, i did'nt have a picture because my camera memory was full (thanks a lot photo editing) but we had a great time. we gave her the cake, and the keychains. So yeah. I stayed back in school today. And Pn.Tan officially declare me in charge of ALL the lockers. Another big job. Now all i gotta o is wait for the book sumin was talking about. And i opened every single locker that is outside the library. And i even completed my homework. Then at about 3pm i walked around the school. And i chated with May-Li. Then we went home. I was tired. But i did'nt take a nap. I don't like taking naps. If i do, i can't sleep at night
Day Six 8/1/11
It's Clara's B'DAY!!! I spammed her wall with birthday greetings. ISN'T THAT AWESOME!? well, i had math tuition at 11am and it was FUN!!! i know what u are thinking, "Maths, being fun!? what kind of sick joke is this?" well i love maths so don't judge me. Not much to say, i stayed at home the whole day. I picked up my dad from the airport and went for supper. I onlined at the cafe and updated day 2 and 3 there. Not much. I came home and watched Hachiko. I cried. Again. Okay. I am done.
During the weekend, I went to 1 Utama to jalan-jalan beore the school starts. I had dinner at Seoul Garden. It is a Korean Steamboat and BBQ buffet. You pay for like RM 35 you get to eat as much as you want! Unless you waste then you have to pay for every 100gram wasted. THE FOOD IS AWESOME!!!! i ate so much... i dunno how to describe... but i did'nt bother to take any pictures because my SD card is totaly PENUH!!! Anyway, i will just put photos i find from Google.
